Liminal (2024)

Liminal

You, my love, 

Are the last ray of sunlight before the 

void of night consumes my very being. 

Entropy has nothing on me, 

all formless and creeping ever closer 

to a limitless state of chaos.

There's an aura of peace when you're around

As comforting and right as the sugar in my tea.

You're the best bits of humanity wrapped up in 

Flannel and cashmere. 

I'm trying to be better for you.

For that version of me only you can see,

On warm nights and cold days;

The St. Elmo's Fire covering who I am, 

Reaching for who I can be

Who I will be.

When I am in my liminal state,

A cyclical shifting between 

What is, what was, and what has never been; 

Liquifying and writhing against every blessing in this world you keep reminding me I am deserving of; 

It's you that guides me back to this plane

A celestial lighthouse in 

The Sea of Dissociation and Hypotheticals.

Your tears are falling stars, 

A beautiful heat death of societal avoidance

A refusal to hide the parts we don't want to see,

Burning bright against convention and fear. 

Touching you reminds me I exist.

Seeing you smile reminds me of 

Life and loving and sunrise.

Knowing you reminds me I too, can be known

And if I can be known, 

Then maybe,

I too, 

Can be loved.